Growing locs or dreadlocks is truly a journey. Lately, everytime I wash my hair, I'm always looking forward to seeing my hair's true length while it's wet. My hair shrinks -- a lot. It always has shrunken a whole lot, especially at the roots. But right now, at a time when my hair is beginning to reach my overall length goals, I really wish people could see how much my hair has grown on a daily basis. Once my hair air dries or dries using a dryer, it curls up at the roots. This is great for the locking process, especially since I have been freeforming for over a year now. But as far as my true length shining through, that only seems to happen when my hair is either soaking wet or damp.
I realized this evening that this is another part of my loc journey: early on, I dealt with a range of concerns. At first, I felt bad for using conditioner on my starter locs. Then I felt bad for not using conditioner every time I washed my hair since I washed it twice a week. Later I felt uneasy about not palmrolling or interlocking anymore. And after that, I worried about whether my hair texture was kinky and coily enough to lock together without retwisting, i.e. freeforming. (You get the picture, right?) =) Most recently, my concern is my desire to make my length visible.
In this very moment, I'm not really sure how or when I will move from this way of thinking. It took time for me to accept and move on from all the concerns I mentioned above. I know that with time, how I'm feeling about my hair right now will change.❤️
(My locs while they are freshly washed, damp, and air drying. Date: October 6, 2014)
(My locs while they are freshly washed, damp, and air drying. Date: October 20, 2014)
❤️ Miss Cherie Marie ❤️